Translated by
Roya Monajam for
payvand.com
What she wrote as her Farewell
Message is so beautiful that I couldn't resist translating and sharing it with
the rest of the world. -- Roya Monajem
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Katayoun Riahi |
Sometimes life is
in such a way that one forsakes one's today's bread for tomorrow's
hunger. Then one's dreams are delayed.
Sometimes, one is
betrayed by fate in such a way that one imagines it is one's own
decision. It is then when one makes claims which later becomes a
trap.
Sometimes one is
left behind one's aspirations.
Sometimes one
wishes to act, and becomes an actress-actor
Sometimes one is
laughing while one is bleeding inside, sometimes one cries when one
is dying of laughter...
Sometimes
everything becomes jokingly serious
Sometimes when one
wants too much, falls short...
Sometimes when one
falls short becomes greedy
Sometimes when one
looks back with fear and tremor, one sees so much bravery
Sometimes one can
bravely watch one's fears and horrors
Sometimes while
looking for happiness, one loses life, and sometimes defines life
expectedly
Sometimes for
finding a worthless treasure, one loses one's own jewel, and
sometimes one finds the gem of truth |
It seems the time has reached
for the common wish of mine and my son to be fulfilled and it is necessary for
the pilgrim of the land of fable to start the journey. Now that I am set to make
this journey, a journey to the other side of life, I feel obliged to thank my
friends and teachers who were so close to me that lived in me: Parvaneh Mahah,
Zahar, the good bride of patriarch, Khanum-bas, Fatemeh Molla Sadra,
Fakhrolzaman, Mihan Sharqi, Tara, Soraya Ardalan... and Zoleykha, the lover.
Although all these endeared ones were in love, but Zoleykhan's love was in
itself a miracle.
These women and my only
compassionate friends were sometimes applauded a little and if they were not
punished, it is out of a divine blessing; even though I do not believe that
there would be an actress in the world who would not be blamed, humiliated and
punished. Yet, my greatest supporters were always the people with their Aryan
compassion and their faith in the divine.
|
Katayoun Riahi -
photo by Ahmad Shahvand |
I am very much honored that
throughout my life as an actress, I had only one supporter and as the mass of
cinema would say, those who tried to put me down, were consciously or
unconsciously after something which my share was beyond it.
In the course of more or less
two decades, I did not ever see the opening or the closing of the Fajr
international film festival. Their invitation card never reached me! In short,
and as Voltaire says: "Oh, God. Save me from my friends, I know what to do with
my enemies!
At the time when I did not
consider cinema the right place for me, the national media (television) became a
platform for me to share my love with my kind people.
And as Hafez says: The Alchemy
of bliss is friend, friends who I appreciate and endear and those who have left
us, may their soul be in peace. And all this loneliness was a blessing for
privacy of friendship and the fact that God's hand... translated in the language
of cinema: Indeed the greatest director is God. What I was supposed to learn
from the magic of cinema and acting, I learnt with the hope it would provide
food for writing and in search of the manifestation of Zoleykha's miracle of
love in my life; I now intend to begin another relationship with you if not in
the sense of playing roles, but in creating roles.
My present will to write
appears not to leave a place for acting, but we should see what the divine will
has written for me. Lest I come out successfully and with full hands from this
test!
May God help me!
Katayoun Riahi
May 2009
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